Wednesday, June 24, 2009

why do people make life hard?

Normally I stick to funny happens but this time I just have to vent...  I don't get it.  You help people and help them yet they think that it's appropriate to talk to you any way they want.  I was not raised that way nor will I tolerate being spoken to in that manner.  Then when you call them out on lies...makes them squirm and it always seems to be someone else's fault.  Own up!  We are human and we all screw up, but to not break the cycle and continue doing the same things is well...unacceptable.  As a child you don't have the choice in how you are raised but when you become and adult YOU have to decide am I going to live in the past or am I going to make my life the best it can be.  Why would you not want to?  I do not want my past to define me nor will I let it.  It is exactly that, past.  There is always someone else that has things worse than me.  You have to make the best of the life you have.  Would I have chosen to lose my sister 3 weeks after she gave birth to the child she struggled so long for? NO.  Would I have chosen for my dad to walk into the emergency room one day and be gone the next.  NO.  We are not promised the next breath so make the best of it.  Are there days when all I want to do is cry, absolutely.  Sometimes I do.  Does it mean that I have permission to mope around, woe is me.  NO, I am here for a purpose and a reason  and until my last breath I will LIVE.  I will do my best even if it means owning up to things I have done wrong and saying I'm sorry to people I have hurt.  I don't get people that think the world owes them something.  The world owes you nothing.    I WILL make sure to the best of my ability that the ones I love are taken care of and not make any excuses for doing so nor will I stop.
Whew!  I feel better!

Friday, June 5, 2009

The Flirt

Victim 5-the flirt

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this one is a doozy and happened a long, long, ok so not that long ago.  A couple of years, give or take.  The flirt.  I met him through work and in my line of work you don’t really meet a lot of people.  It started as innocent flirtin on both parts.  I flirt well over the phone.  Since his company did business with us we’d talk from time to time.  I can’t remember how it happened but eventually we exchanged phone numbers.  I should have ran the other way when he told me he’d been married 3 times and lied about how often he saw his children.  He had 2 boys and didn’t see either one of them.  He told me he saw them once a month but we dated for like 3 months and he NEVER saw them.  That should have been what sent me away.  No I stayed.  Even when I found out his youngest child was conceived during “a weekend of fun.”  Did that scare me off?  No but it should have.  When his soon to be ex showed up at his house when I was there and they were arguing in the yard, I stuck around.  I did question how his ex knew where he lived since he had just moved there.  The story he gave did not jive but at the time I believed him.  It boiled down to the fact that I wouldn’t sleep with him.  I didn’t trust him and with good reason.  When he ended it he moved his new girlfriend in within a week.  Whew....close call.  We went about a year without talking then he emailed and asked how i was doing.  We'd talk every so often and I even went to dinner with him.  I have seen or talked to him in about 4 years.  

I'm so thankful I'm not that same girl... I look back and see that I put up with a lot of crap.  In the words of Lady Antebellum "that girl is long gone" those that know, keep it to yourself...Josh.

oh, what to blog about...

what to say..., it has given me this glorious headache. 
It's just one of those days where I'd rather be at the beach by the pool or digging my feet in the sand. Instead I'm at work blogging, when I should be I'm starting my weekend early.  My work is done so I'm good.
This week has been crazy free which makes for a boring week.  I hope next week will provide quite the adventure!
I know I need to post more dating stories but have held back on some due to others would know who they are...not that there is many...the well is dry.
Oh, did have a close call Tuesday night.  When leaving Firebirds I almost ran into a guy I had gone out with.  With a sharp turn I went the other way and sent my friends running to let me know when it was clear to exit and of course they wanted to check him out.  We just didn't click and since I still receive emails from him and a notice that he is following me on twitter (no, I don't use it) I felt I should let it ride...  Whew!!
Alright I'm going to do some editing and get those funny date stories to you!